A woman

Isn’t she precocious, sweet loving, and committed in all her affairs

She may differ in her colour or taste but everything about her is all but too special

Since destiny she is made by the creator to be the source of life-bearing

Everything about her body prophesies her nature to be who she is

I wonder if she ever realizes just how precious she is and does she even stop to think what dull life would be like if it weren’t for her very existence. I wonder at the sight of every women looking into the mirror and smiling at the fact she holds the key to the gift of life as bestowed to her by her beloved Creator.

Maybe just maybe one day she will wake up one morning and realize that all she has been searching for have all along been deep within her

Sunshine and Love

I like the feel of the sun kissing your skin

Gives you that  warm and fuzzy feeling doesn’t it

I most enjoy the sun after the long rainy periods

Enlightening as well to see the brightness effect it has on all of nature.

A large part of my life has always had sunshine in fact I can’t remember a time missing sunshine too much. The longest would be a week but even during that week the sun would still show up here and there.

Love and Sunshine both share similar characteristics,

Love means well when it kisses you as it is only an expression of what it feels

Love also gives you that warm and fuzzy feeling. When love is around everything seems bright and darkness only knows distance. There’s never a time love has left me hanging out. Everyday love comes in different sizes and shapes. It seems the only way I can tell when love is around is through that warm and fuzzy feeling I get just like when sunshine comes around.

My ' L' Moment

I wish the ‘L’ could stand for love but its referring to my “low” moment.

This morning I woke up with a nasty head ache, more so the dream I had woken up from felt like it had drank all the energy left in me. As I opened up my eyes the light from the window intruded my sleep making me even more annoyed. I crept out of bed feeling angry and exhausted not really knowing why I was feeling this way. Maybe part of the reason was because of the dream that I had woken up from.

I dreamt I had been taken hostage by some unidentified persons and was struggling to break myself loose from their grip, I’ve never felt so confined and threaten. Anyway the dream ended the moment I woke up and I managed to drag myself to the shower and then talked to a few of my sisters and then finally make it to work. Things didn’t get any better when the elevator I was in decided to freeze which made me panic a little and then when I opened up my work emails I got work from someone who was not supposed to give me work.

To make things worse I had to pay my teacher and when I checked my bank account, I didn’t have enough to pay her and worse of all I still owe her a week’s pay. I feel so stuck and so defeated. To be frankly honest I’ve been pretending that I’m on top of all my expenses when in fact I’m not. I struggle every fortnight to meet all my expenses and it’s not fun at all having to be conscious of every cent that I have had to spend.

Thoughts of not worth living strike me as I feel this weight of burden because I feel it’s my responsibility to make everything work. Asking for help is the last my pride will hear of. I feel somewhat trapped in this situation. I’m tired of feeling strained and I’m still wondering at how to go about this. I know and I’ve been told time and time again to trust God but today it seems like the hardest thing to do.

My faith is crumpling I don’t know what to do. What have I done to bring all these trouble upon myself? Why do I have to go through all these? I don’t feel I have what it takes, I can’t live Iike this every fortnight. I feel like I’m working for debts. This has all become a cycle and I feel a desperate need to get out of it before it all gets to me. Please Lord help me because I’m heading towards the wrong path, I’m already feeling unworthy to live this life, I feel maybe if I end it now everything will come to an end.

But I found myself waking up this morning, and that’s the greatest assurance God can ever give me. Yes I woke up. When I went to sleep last night I was never guaranteed that I was going to see today and if God knew I couldn’t make it throughout this day I would never have woken up. I was granted the opportunity to live through this day and be able to overcome the challenges, I realize more and more that there is much more to life than the everyday challenges.